So, I was shopping around &..

HAHAHAHAHA! Ily, Austin Redman.

Salvation Army.

It's just so hard to decide. :(

Mallratz

Today I spent the whole day with Jennifer Chavez.
We started at the Cerritos Mall, then to Irvine Spectrum.
Then to Lakewood Mall, and finally Del Amo Mall.
God damn that was a lot of driving.
Thank God for sparkly Toms!
But seriously, fuck giving a kid a free pair of shoes.
Give ME the free pair of shoes.

January 1, 1919 – January 27, 2010

“Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behaviour. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them—if you want to. Just as some day, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.” RIP J.D. Salinger

Lately,

I'm not who I used to be. I've been terribly angry at the world, or at just everyone. I always thought it was the one person I see the most that was always making me angry, but it was only me. It's always been me and I've been bitter and mean and I hate the way I am now. But, I finally realized why I've been the way I've been. I went through my old room tonight and everything on my wall is artwork from the only boy I've ever been myself around. He was pretty much the only thing in my life that has ever mattered. I haven't talked to him in over a year. So, I either need to get him back in my life, or let him go completely and get over it. The decision is easy, I just don't know how to let him know.

SUSHI!

Had my first sushi experience today at RA for happy hour.
This is called "Tootsy Maki". Deeeeeeelightful!

"It rubs me the wrong way, a camera...

Cameras make ghosts out of people.” -B. Dylan

Morongo.

Just a few seconds of my big 44$ win!... before Rjay called my phone, and.. before he lost my 20$ on the Blackjack table. Down 20$, no biggie. I had fun. Some drunk, just married lady said we look cute. Drunks can be so stupid.

Gold.

Good morning starshine.

Slept with my man last night and got him to shave his beard this morning. It's about damn time the mustache got to ride solo. I'm loving it. Hellllllllo Cary Elles! <3

Then when he dropped me off before work, I got to come home to this. She's so precious.

Baking with Lori.

This morning around 12am, Lori & I decided to try and make some chocolate chip cookies from scratch. We made about 4 dozen and this is how each dozen turned out:

1st: looked like baby cookies, but tasted like scones.
2nd: looked like baby cookies that we burned, so we threw that whole dozen out the window.
3rd: we checked to see how they were doing & some we too close to each other so we took it out to move them, but they were super gushy and so Lori attacked them with the spatula. They came out really ugly.
4th: They looked like cookies, but still tasted like scones.

Our first taste tester was Rjay, he said, "What did you forget to put in them?" -- He actually ended up liking them the most!

Life taught me to die.

Suicide medicine.

Fucking finally.

1. Drawing by Noah Andrade.

2. Scene from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

3. Quote from Andy Warhol.

Well, now my room is slightly less boring, but it still needs lots of work.

It only lasted until 1pm.

Finally my Hello Kitty rainboots can get in on some action.

There was a pond made today.


Wish the rain lasted longer. Everyday? Every day.
Now, to redecorate my room with some Alanis Morissette inspiration.

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Sailing over wave and tide,
Fantastic waves against our sides,
And I'm not so afraid.
Lost at sea, as i should be,
And I'm not so afraid,
Lost at sea, you and I, you and me.

Let it rain.

.. but we are still going to dress like sluts.

Heerre it comes.

Isn't it beautiful?


Later I thought I'd get some alone time by driving down to the beach and reading while enjoying a nice hot chocolate in the rain.

I can't even imagine what it would be like to live inland. To never being able to see this, I would die. Sure lakes and rivers are beautiful too, but the ocean has a horizon where the sun falls and I can't help but always wish to follow. I need this.

Fre$h beginnings.

Just what I needed, to be surrounded with old friends. <3
Congrats Paulina on LMU! I love you.
& Helena on Humbolt.
... I need to get my ass the hell out of El Camino.

Fuck Venice Beach.

I hate you with a passion, but god bless the USA!

She's one mean kitty.

Breakfast in bed pt. 2

Mine.

His.

Wilde.

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.

Happy birthday, Gabrielle!

It's been two years since I've met you and god damn, I love you!
I love you. I love you. I love you.

My japanese niggawater booboo.

Love,
Chelsey

First Disneyland trip of 2010.

Before I was too drunk to function.

Oh hai, Stitch. You can danse with Kelsey, but first you need to take a damn picture with us!

Good night, Chelsey.

Good morning new year.

Breakfast in bed? Oh thanks, boyfriend.
Sex too? Oh, you're just amazing.
Kisses on the forehead after that? Damn, I fucking adore you.

January 2, 2010

"I bet if you turned around right now and told him to tell you he loved you, he would."

Midnight kiss.

I can't believe he took this at midnight. Best New Years Eve, ever.